24 Mar 2014

Extremes

in Amy, deep thoughts, life events/news, memories, recovery

Half a week later... and if anything, the extremes of my feelings are worse instead of better. If given the chance, I'm not sure whether I'd throttle her or thank her. There's not much room for anything in between right now. Either way, I'm pretty sure I'd be bawling while doing it.

know she wasn't happy, though. I honestly hope she finds happiness. That's the honest truth.

25 Feb 2014

The wreck today

in random

Now that I have some time, I figure I should let everyone know that I was rear-ended this morning. Me and the other driver were both unhurt. No one else was in our cars, and our two cars were the only ones involved. Honestly, it was very minor. What the other driver gave as his description matched mine.

19 Jan 2014

Beginning to see some things coming back

in deep thoughts, geekiness, recovery

You know, I was originally writing one of my "extended novel" form posts., but I think I'm going to use this lockup as a signal that I should be doing something a lot shorter. What I was really trying to say was that as strange as it seems, I've decided to look at a small slip that resulted in something taking a lot longer than it should have as a sign that I'm gradually getting back to much closer to normal.

01 Oct 2013

Sorry about the site "going away"

in geekiness, site updates

For the three or so people that were probably paying attention, I've found and fixed my error that resulted in this site "going away" for a few days. I can get technical on a one-on-one basis for anyone who's interested, but it's too long and boring to share here. The short story is that it's fixed, and it shouldn't happen again.

25 Sep 2013

Relating to a web comic

in deep thoughts, recovery

Yesterday, I happened upon a web page that had a collection of web comics that all dealt with the difficulties of depression. There was a lot of stuff I related to, but there was one quote in item 15, that really resonated with me:

I had simply become bad at the thing I was best at, and it disappointed everyone, especially me.

That's how I feel right now.