So, I have a new web log up (finally). I’m not going to link to it here, but if I know you, feel free to contact me privately, and I’ll give you the link. 🙂 I will no longer post any new entries to this site (but I do plan to leave it up for historical purposes).
For anyone who knows me well, it will probably come as no surprise that I was quite relieved when I came up with a reason why this whole situation is (mostly) my fault. For those of you who don’t know me well and, yet, are still interested, I hope by the time you finish reading this “book”, you’ll have a general idea.
Well, I took a look at the online account stuff, and I can see that the US Treasury has deposited the check that I sent to pay my federal taxes. That confirms a few different relief-inducing things:
- I put the returns in the correct envelopes (I thought I did, but you know how you always obsess about these things).
- The federal return actually arrived (I already got notification about the Alabama return through Registered Mail tracking).
- The return I actually owed money on has been received.
Half a week later… and if anything, the extremes of my feelings are worse instead of better. If given the chance, I’m not sure whether I’d throttle her or thank her. There’s not much room for anything in between right now. Either way, I’m pretty sure I’d be bawling while doing it.
I know she wasn’t happy, though. I hope she finds happiness. That’s the honest truth.
I said that I didn’t know which, but I do want to say “thank you” for the best 14+ years of my life (so far).
Now that I have some time, I figure I should let everyone know that I was rear-ended this morning. Me and the other driver were both unhurt. No one else was in our cars, and our two cars were the only ones involved. Honestly, it was very minor. What the other driver gave as his description matched mine.
You know, I was originally writing one of my “extended novel” form posts., but I think I’m going to use this lockup as a signal that I should be doing something a lot shorter. What I was really trying to say was that as strange as it seems, I’ve decided to look at a small slip that resulted in something taking a lot longer than it should have as a sign that I’m gradually getting back to much closer to normal. The way I put it is that it’s a sign that I’m starting to look at things only “n” times (as opposed to “2n” or “3n” times).
For the three or so people that were probably paying attention, I’ve found and fixed my error that resulted in the site “going away” for a few days. I can get technical on a one-on-one basis for anyone who’s interested, but it’s too long and boring to share here. The short story is that it’s fixed, and it shouldn’t happen again.
Yesterday, I happened upon a web page that had a collection of web comics that all dealt with the difficulties of depression. There was a lot of stuff I related to, but there was one quote in item 15, that really resonated with me:
I had simply become bad at the thing I was best at, and it disappointed everyone, especially me.
That’s how I feel right now.
I just watched this TED talk on the effects of stress. The short version? The presenter is showing statistics which argue that the negative effects of stress can be pretty much negated by connecting and sharing with other people. In other words, the negative effects of stress are largely the result of how we deal with the stress. People that seek help from others and people who help others largely don’t experience stress’ negative effects.
You know, I don’t think I realized until 2011 just how much crap almost every woman goes through on a very regular basis. I mean, I knew this stuff happens, but I didn’t realize how common it is. If you’re a guy, please follow the link below and know that people you care about are putting up with this on a regular basis.